2013年5月2日星期四
Meaning of God Fearing is deeply respectful or fearful of God
Meaning of God Fearing is deeply respectful or fearful of God. 就算你是何等的神圣,洁净,与狼共舞,漠视人民的哀哭,狼狈为奸,纵容马机店继续营业,你就不配说你是God fearing, 你根本不敬畏上帝,恋权,更别说你奉守基督徒原则。“以基督徒的身份告诉你们”。。。如果基督徒都是这样,我宁愿快点世界末日。
2012年8月25日星期六
我的见证
什么是基督徒?是不是嘴边挂着"我是基督徒"就等于是!你或者是个“礼拜徒”或者是抱着宁可信其有的态度,而从来没有思考过有没有过着真正基督徒该有的生活。真正的基督徒要活着要有基督的影子,死了方可进入基督的国度。真正的基督徒可以不畏惧死亡,因为他们知道死后必能进入神的国度,而死亡不是结束,乃是新的开始。
以前底的我觉得只要承认自己是个基督徒,就能得救,得到祝福。所以常常给自己很多理由远离了教会,甚至一年才去一次教堂,那就是农历新年随着家人去崇拜,可是我错了!过去的我生活过的并不开心。即使这样上帝并没有因为这样远离我,当我非常疲惫、沮丧的时侯我向上帝祈求,他给了我很明确的指示,为什么说"明确"的指示呢?这要从我在新加坡工作了八年后说起。
一年前,我下定决心辞掉工作回来诗巫找工,看是否能找到一份工作让我可以养家糊口,心想如果诗巫没找到就去外地如民都鲁,美里,甚至西马,澳洲,甚至再回到新加坡。但是上帝已经听见了我的祈祷,祂早已按排了一份工作给我,据我现在的同事说我这个职位以经招聘了一个多月既然都没有适合的人选,而我去应征不久就收到受聘通知,似乎在等我回来去应征,很明确的上帝为我留了一份工作。而我进工司不久就遇到一位不同部门的高层在一个非常偶然而且“崎岖”的情况下对我传福音,为什么"崎岖"?那是因为在一次我乘坐他的车前往油棕园在凹凸不平的油棕院路上对我传福音。这又是一次上帝明确的按排了他的仆人向我招手。经过他的邀请和我一翻的内心挣扎,终于参加了英文查经班。对!我连中文的圣经都看不懂既然要参加英文的查经班。在这次的查经中我读了这一生中读的第一本英文的宣教书——“Trust God ! Even life hurts” 书的内容就和书名一样,通过这本书的话告诉我们无论在什么情况下都要信靠主——“坚信”。这本书也影响和陪伴我度过了我之后的一段刻骨铭心的日子,那就是我小孩的生日,我老婆的受难日。
记得当天我老婆生产当天经历了一天的痛苦后仍然无法诞下宝宝,唯有动手术取出宝宝,经过一整天的折腾以为黎明终于来临,谁知道等待我们的竟然是一次又一次的考验,在手术后,老婆出现麻醉剂过敏,全身颤抖,呕吐的现象。而就在我极力的安抚和照顾的时候,儿科医生突然要求见我,告诉我宝宝呼吸急促,须要转送诗巫中央医院治疗,不然就有生命危险。生平坐过两次救伤车,一次是自己车祸,第二次是陪伴这女儿转送到中央医院。这时明白无论你是家财万贯还是高官达贵,当你面临灾难或病痛时你和别人没两样,都要面对生老病死,而且都是无助的。正当我彷徨无助的时间,我想起了我的信仰,我再次的祈求神给我希望,求神医治我的太太和女儿,甚至传简讯给我的朋友,要求他们为我的两位至亲的人祷告,因为这时的我已经分身乏术,一个在中央医院,另一个在诗巫专课医疗中心,而这时我太太跟本不知道女儿以经出事,或者说她麻醉药清醒过后,发现我和女儿都不在身边却不懂发生什么事一样会心乱如麻。而我在中央医院像热锅上的蚂蚁一样,着急的等待医生的急救,直到医生告诉我怀疑宝宝肺部受到细菌感染发炎,减称肺炎,已经输入抗生素,虽然情况还不稳定,但已无生命危险,我才离开医院回到我太太身边,再将宝宝的病情告诉她,这一切都在这几小时里发生心脏稍有问题的可能会晕倒。
之后我又回到中央医院,等待X光报告,等待的当时只能望着女儿躺在病床上,嘴巴插着氧气管,呼吸还是一样的急促,旁边的仪器不时就发出警惕音,心里的痛更是无法形容,直到临晨报告终于出了,证实和医生预测的一样肺部收到细菌感染,我才离开回到太太身边,这时的我以经身心力揭,开车时几度都不知不觉闭上了眼睛,睁开眼时都险象环生,回想当时如果不是有上帝的保佑,可能我也要去医院住几天了。回到诗巫专科医疗中心时,就在那沙发上咪了一下,因为又担心女儿就又回到中央医院看她,接下来的两天不是在太太身边照顾她就是到女儿身边和她说话,唱歌给她听,鼓励她,希望她能战胜病菌,快点康复。就这样来来回回医院过了两天,看到女儿时不懂哭过多少遍。
我记得当天是2月14情人节,我的太太终于可以出院了,她忍着伤口的痛回家,目的可想而知就是想见一见那从出世后两天都没见过的女儿,回到家安顿了后我们就出发到医院去,她忍着伤口的痛走到女儿身边,接下来的就是母女相遇感人热泪的画面,女儿是乎也感觉到母亲来了,张大了口要哭可是因为插管哭不出声音,这时我们的心都碎了。这个情人节是我过得最悲惨的一次,我最心爱的两个人都在受哭,而我却无能为力,而唯一能做的就是向上帝祈求给她们平安,健康。
女儿在深切治疗部待了五天,一下子说黄了,一下子说病情会越来越重,我们就这样被医生吓了五天,终于!医生说她可以转到普通病房观察。我的心好想从黑暗中看到了曙光,感谢上帝!转去普通病房的第一个星期天,我去教堂崇拜,又一次明确的提醒我,祂与我们同在,为什么呢?因为当天是“主日学崇拜”,而我从医院赶到教堂时已经迟到了,主日学的小朋友正在台上唱歌,正巧的是,当我踏进教堂当儿,他们正在唱这我过去几天唱给我女儿听的歌,祂又一次明确的告诉我祂有在听我们的祷告,我在幻想有一天我的女儿也会在台上唱着这首歌给我听。当时的我非常感动,泪也不知不觉的流下,我们的相信的神是何等伟大啊!
接下来的日子,女儿和太太仍然在医院,我每天都无时无刻的为他们祷告,无论是吃饭,睡前,休息时都祷告恳求上帝也能保佑我太太,女儿能够有足够的营养快高长大,有足够的抵抗力抵抗细菌,赐给她们健康、快乐,就这样一日复一日,在医院里又待了两个星期多,加上女儿在深切治疗部的五天总共是三个星期多,终于他们可以出院了!虽然回到家中都还是继续用氧气辅助她呼吸,一切都是步步为营,小心亦亦的照顾着她。女儿之后又被症断出有其它问题,当然解决的方法就是一链串的药物治疗和不人道的检查,宝宝在受尽了苦之后。
终于在宝宝4个月大后,上帝给了我们奖励,宝宝的报告诊断已没什么大碍,只须每年检查一次就好了,而且医生告诉我们宝宝的肺有慢慢好转,相信宝宝坚强的熬过了一切的苦难,等待着她就是曙光。“天之降大任于斯也,必劳其胫骨,伤其脾肺”我靠着这句名言和“坚信”这两个字度过一切的难关,而我相信祂会陪伴我们度过一切的苦难,而祂也从来没让我失望。
回想这一切如果发生在新加坡,医药费将会是过万新币!而不是137零吉!要不是回到诗巫,更没亲戚朋友的帮忙和鼓励,要不是上帝安排了他的仆人向我招手,我应该会不知所措,更可能是到处求神问佛,后果更是不堪设想。祂是世界的主宰、权柄、荣耀、道路、真理、生命、唯有信祂方能到父那里去。
2012年8月6日星期一
PHP Virtualbox
This guide
explains how you can run virtual machines with VirtualBox 4.1 on a headless
Ubuntu 12.04 server. Normally you use the VirtualBox GUI to manage your virtual
machines, but a server does not have a desktop environment. Fortunately,
VirtualBox comes with a tool called VBoxHeadless that allows you to connect to
the virtual machines over a remote desktop connection, so there's no need for
the VirtualBox GUI.
I do not
issue any guarantee that this will work for you!
1
Preliminary Note
I have
tested this on an Ubuntu 12.04 server (host system) with the IP address
192.168.0.100 where I'm logged in as a normal user (user name administrator in
this example) instead of as root.
2
Installing VirtualBox
To install
VirtualBox 4.1 on our Ubuntu 12.04 server, we open /etc/apt/sources.list...
sudo vi /etc/apt/sources.list
... and
add the following line to it:
[...]
deb
http://download.virtualbox.org/virtualbox/debian precise contrib
Then we
download the VirtualBox public key...
wget -q
http://download.virtualbox.org/virtualbox/debian/oracle_vbox.asc -O- | sudo
apt-key add -
... and
update our package database:
sudo
apt-get update
Afterwards,
we install VirtualBox 4.1 as follows:
sudo
apt-get install linux-headers-$(uname -r) build-essential virtualbox-4.1 dkms
(The dkms
package ensures that the VirtualBox host kernel modules are properly updated if
the Linux kernel version changes.)
Starting
with version 4.0, VirtualBox has introduced so called "extension
packs" and has outsourced some functionality like remote desktop
connection support (VRDP) that was part of VirtualBox packages before version
4.0 into these extension packs. Because we need remote desktop connections to
control our virtual machines, we need to install the appropriate extension pack
now. Go to http://www.virtualbox.org/wiki/Downloads, and you will find a link
to the following extension pack:
VirtualBox
4.1.18 Oracle VM VirtualBox Extension Pack
Support
for USB 2.0 devices, VirtualBox RDP and PXE boot for Intel cards.
Download
and install the extension pack as follows:
cd /tmp
wget
http://download.virtualbox.org/virtualbox/4.1.18/Oracle_VM_VirtualBox_Extension_Pack-4.1.18-78361.vbox-extpack
sudo
VBoxManage extpack install
Oracle_VM_VirtualBox_Extension_Pack-4.1.18-78361.vbox-extpack
(Make sure
you grab the latest version from the VirtualBox web site.)
(Make sure
you run the last command with sudo - sudo VBoxManage extpack install ... -
because otherwise you will get an error like this:
administrator@server1:/tmp$
VBoxManage extpack install Oracle_VM_VirtualBox_Extension_Pack-4.1.18-78361.vbox-extpack
0%...
Progress
state: NS_ERROR_FAILURE
VBoxManage:
error: Failed to install
"/tmp/Oracle_VM_VirtualBox_Extension_Pack-4.1.18-78361.vbox-extpack":
The installer failed with exit code 127: Error creating textual authentication
agent: Error opening current controlling terminal for the process (`/dev/tty'):
No such device or address
administrator@server1:/tmp$
)
Now we
must add the user that will run VirtualBox (administrator in this example) to
the vboxusers group:
sudo
adduser administrator vboxusers
VirtualBox
is now installed and ready to be used.
Managing A
Headless VirtualBox Installation With phpvirtualbox (Ubuntu 12.04)
1
Preliminary Note
I'm
assuming that a headless VirtualBox is already installed on the local Ubuntu
12.04 server, e.g. as described in the tutorial VBoxHeadless - Running Virtual
Machines With VirtualBox 4.1 On A Headless Ubuntu 12.04 Server.
I'm
running all the steps in this tutorial with root privileges, so make sure
you're logged in as root:
sudo su
2
Installing phpvirtualbox
First
create a system user called vbox and add it to the vboxusers group:
useradd -m
vbox -G vboxusers
Create a
password for the vbox user:
passwd
vbox
Create the
file /etc/default/virtualbox and put the line VBOXWEB_USER=vbox in it (so that
the VirtualBox SOAP API which is called vboxwebsrv runs as the user vbox):
vi
/etc/default/virtualbox
VBOXWEB_USER=vbox
Next
create the system startup links for vboxwebsrv and start it:
update-rc.d
vboxweb-service defaults
/etc/init.d/vboxweb-service
start
We need a
web server with PHP support to serve phpvirtualbox - I'm using Apache2 here.
Install Apache2 and PHP5 as follows:
apt-get
install apache2-mpm-prefork apache2-utils apache2.2-bin apache2.2-common
apache2 apache2-doc apache2-suexec libapache2-mod-php5 libapr1 libaprutil1
libaprutil1-dbd-sqlite3 libaprutil1-ldap libapr1 php5-common php5-mysql
php5-suhosin php-pear wget
Restart
Apache2:
/etc/init.d/apache2
restart
I want to
serve phpvirtualbox from Apache's default virtual host with the document root
/var/www (I will install it in /var/www/phpvirtualbox) - if you have a
different document root, you must adjust the following steps:
cd
/var/www
wget
http://phpvirtualbox.googlecode.com/files/phpvirtualbox-4.1-7.zip
Unzip
phpvirtualbox and rename the phpvirtualbox-4.1-7 to phpvirtualbox for ease of
use:
unzip
phpvirtualbox-4.1-7.zip
mv
phpvirtualbox-4.1-7 phpvirtualbox
Next go to
the /var/www/phpvirtualbox/ directory...
cd
/var/www/phpvirtualbox/
... and
create the file config.php by copying it from config.php-example:
cp
config.php-example config.php
Open
config.php and fill in the password you created earlier for the vbox system
user:
vi
config.php
[...]
/*
Username / Password for system user that runs VirtualBox */
var
$username = 'vbox';
var
$password = 'secret';
[...]
That's it
already - you can now open a browser and access phpvirtualbox as follows:
http://www.example.com/phpvirtualbox/
The
default username is admin, the password is admin as well:
This is
how phpvirtualbox looks - much like the native VirtualBox GUI:
The first
thing you should do is change the admin password. Go to File > Change
Password:
Type in
the old password and specify a new one:
If you
know the native VirtualBox GUI, it's now very easy to use phpvirtualbox. For
example, if you want to create a new virtual machine, you have the same wizard
as you have in the VirtualBox GUI:
2012年7月20日星期五
Step by step setup samba4 with Ubuntu 12.04
Step 1 Configure network and firewall
In terminal type
Configure the Network to use a static address. Edit /etc/network/interfaces
auto lo eth0
iface lo inet loopback
iface eth0 inet static
address 10.61.61.179
netmask 255.255.0.0
gateway 10.61.4.1
dns-nameservers 10.61.61.179 8.8.8.8
dns-search samba4.jtop.net
Now run
hostname
$mail
hostname -f
$mail.jtop.net
Disable Firewall
sudo ufw disable
nano etc/sysctl.conf
Step 1 Configure network and firewall
In terminal type
Configure the Network to use a static address. Edit /etc/network/interfaces
auto lo eth0
iface lo inet loopback
iface eth0 inet static
address 10.61.61.179
netmask 255.255.0.0
gateway 10.61.4.1
dns-nameservers 10.61.61.179 8.8.8.8
dns-search samba4.jtop.net
Now run
hostname
hostname -f
$mail.jtop.net
Disable Firewall
sudo ufw disable
nano etc/sysctl.conf
Disable IPV6
net.ipv6.conf.all.disable_ipv6=1
Step 2 Install Samba4
Download samba4.0.0beta3.tar.gz from http://ftp.samba.org/pub/samba/samba4/ and save it to your HOME folder
apt-get install build-essential libacl1-dev libattr1-dev \
libblkid-dev libgnutls-dev libreadline-dev python-dev \
python-dnspython gdb pkg-config libpopt-dev libldap2-dev \
bind9utils dnsutils samba4-clients emacs bind9
In terminal type
net.ipv6.conf.all.disable_ipv6=1
Step 2 Install Samba4
Download samba4.0.0beta3.tar.gz from http://ftp.samba.org/pub/samba/samba4/ and save it to your HOME folder
apt-get install build-essential libacl1-dev libattr1-dev \
libblkid-dev libgnutls-dev libreadline-dev python-dev \
python-dnspython gdb pkg-config libpopt-dev libldap2-dev \
bind9utils dnsutils samba4-clients emacs bind9
In terminal type
$cd /home
$tar –xvf samba4.0.0beta3.tar.gz ##Extract
$cd samba4.0.0beta3
$./configure
$make ##Compile
$make install ##Install
$ nano /etc/hosts
10.61.61.179 mail.jtop.net
$ rm /usr/local/samba/etc/smb.conf
$ sudo /usr/local/samba/sbin/provision \
--realm=samba4.jtop.net --domain=SAMBA4 \
--adminpass= abc123!@# --server-role=dc
Note: Domain must in capital letter (eg.SAMBA, JTOP or …)
Step 3: Configure Bind
Now you need to edit the bind configuration file to include the necessary configurations for Samba – Active Directory relies heavily on special DNS entries to find various services on the network.
Edit nano /etc/bind/named.conf and append the following line at the end:
include "/usr/local/samba/private/named.conf";
Edit nano /etc/bind/named.conf.options and append the following line at the end:
$tar –xvf samba4.0.0beta3.tar.gz ##Extract
$cd samba4.0.0beta3
$./configure
$make ##Compile
$make install ##Install
$ nano /etc/hosts
10.61.61.179 mail.jtop.net
$ rm /usr/local/samba/etc/smb.conf
$ sudo /usr/local/samba/sbin/provision \
--realm=samba4.jtop.net --domain=SAMBA4 \
--adminpass= abc123!@# --server-role=dc
Note: Domain must in capital letter (eg.SAMBA, JTOP or …)
Step 3: Configure Bind
Now you need to edit the bind configuration file to include the necessary configurations for Samba – Active Directory relies heavily on special DNS entries to find various services on the network.
Edit nano /etc/bind/named.conf and append the following line at the end:
include "/usr/local/samba/private/named.conf";
Edit nano /etc/bind/named.conf.options and append the following line at the end:
$nano etc/bind/named.conf.options
listen-on port 53 { 10.61.61.179; };
Allow-query { 10.61.61.179;any; };
Step 4: Adapt the AppArmor configuration
As Ubuntu is securing it’s services using AppArmor we need to make sure that Bind has the rights to access the files provided by Samba.
Edit nano /etc/apparmor.d/usr.sbin.named and append the following entries:
#Samba4
/usr/local/samba/etc/** rm,
/usr/local/samba/private/** rkw,
/usr/local/samba/private/dns/** rkw,
/usr/local/samba/lib/** rm,
/usr/local/samba/lib/bind9/** rkwm,
/usr/local/samba/lib/private/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/bind9/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/gensec/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/ldb/modules/ldb/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/ldb/** rm,
Now reload the configuration to take effect:
/etc/init.d/apparmor reload
Step 5: Start and test Bind
Run the following command to start Bind:
/etc/init.d/bind9 start
nano etc/bind/named.conf.options
listen-on-v6 { none; };
Step 6: Start Samba4
$/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba
$ps –x
$ps –e | grep samba
##Now you need to test that DNS is working correctly
$host -t SRV _ldap._tcp.samba4.jtop.net.
_ldap._tcp.samba4.jtop.net has SRV record 0 100 389 mail.samba4.jtop.net.
$host -t SRV _kerberos._udp.samba4.jtop.net.
_kerberos._udp.samba4.jtop.net has SRV record 0 100 88 mail.samba4.jtop.net.
$host -t A samba4.jtop.net.
samba4.jtop.net has address 10.61.61.179
Step 7 Configure Kerberos
$cp /usr/local/samba/private/krb5.conf /etc/
$vi /etc/krb5.conf
[libdefaults]
default_realm = SAMBA4.JTOP.NET
dns_lookup_realm = false
dns_lookup_kdc = true
$kinit administrator@SAMBA4.JTOP.NET ß Domain must in capital letter
password= abc123!@#
$klist -e
Allow-query { 10.61.61.179;any; };
Step 4: Adapt the AppArmor configuration
As Ubuntu is securing it’s services using AppArmor we need to make sure that Bind has the rights to access the files provided by Samba.
Edit nano /etc/apparmor.d/usr.sbin.named and append the following entries:
#Samba4
/usr/local/samba/etc/** rm,
/usr/local/samba/private/** rkw,
/usr/local/samba/private/dns/** rkw,
/usr/local/samba/lib/** rm,
/usr/local/samba/lib/bind9/** rkwm,
/usr/local/samba/lib/private/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/bind9/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/gensec/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/ldb/modules/ldb/** rm,
/usr/lib/x86_64-linux-gnu/samba/ldb/** rm,
Now reload the configuration to take effect:
/etc/init.d/apparmor reload
Step 5: Start and test Bind
Run the following command to start Bind:
/etc/init.d/bind9 start
nano etc/bind/named.conf.options
listen-on-v6 { none; };
Step 6: Start Samba4
$/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba
$ps –x
$ps –e | grep samba
##Now you need to test that DNS is working correctly
$host -t SRV _ldap._tcp.samba4.jtop.net.
_ldap._tcp.samba4.jtop.net has SRV record 0 100 389 mail.samba4.jtop.net.
$host -t SRV _kerberos._udp.samba4.jtop.net.
_kerberos._udp.samba4.jtop.net has SRV record 0 100 88 mail.samba4.jtop.net.
$host -t A samba4.jtop.net.
samba4.jtop.net has address 10.61.61.179
Step 7 Configure Kerberos
$cp /usr/local/samba/private/krb5.conf /etc/
$vi /etc/krb5.conf
[libdefaults]
default_realm = SAMBA4.JTOP.NET
dns_lookup_realm = false
dns_lookup_kdc = true
$kinit administrator@SAMBA4.JTOP.NET ß Domain must in capital letter
password= abc123!@#
$klist -e
Debugging dynamic DNS updates
The way the automatic DNS update in Samba works is that the provision will create a file /usr/local/samba/private/dns_update_list, which contains a list of DNS entries that Samba will try to dynamically update at startup and every 10 minutes thereafter using samba_dnsupdate utility. Updates will only happen if the DNS entries do not already exist. Remember that you need nsupdate utility from bind distribution for all these to work (dnsutils package in Debian/Ubuntu).
/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba_dnsupdate --verbose
Step 8 Auto start samba4 & smbd
nano /etc/rc.local
rm -rf /usr/local/samba/var/run/smbd-fileserver.conf.pid
/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba
$reboot
The way the automatic DNS update in Samba works is that the provision will create a file /usr/local/samba/private/dns_update_list, which contains a list of DNS entries that Samba will try to dynamically update at startup and every 10 minutes thereafter using samba_dnsupdate utility. Updates will only happen if the DNS entries do not already exist. Remember that you need nsupdate utility from bind distribution for all these to work (dnsutils package in Debian/Ubuntu).
/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba_dnsupdate --verbose
Step 8 Auto start samba4 & smbd
nano /etc/rc.local
rm -rf /usr/local/samba/var/run/smbd-fileserver.conf.pid
/usr/local/samba/sbin/samba
$reboot
2010年11月29日星期一
过去,未来
当时间一分一秒的过去,我就越来越觉得不安,不安中有带着一点喜悦,喜悦来由有点不舍。我的心开始觉得乱,想尽快完成我手头上的工作,准备光荣退出,可是因为没人懂我有一颗离开的心,他们依然带着那今日事明日必的精神,慢条斯理的完成工作。过去我对公司付出的我觉得绝对是无怨无悔,只希望我离开后留得一个美名,当别人提起我的时候,我会希望是赞美而不是暗骂。在这8年的时间里,日子虽然过得不是很顺利,但是,总算学到一些技巧,得到一些工作经验,人与人的交流,甚至是如何在明争暗斗,勾心斗角的环境里生存。最重要的是认识几个真心的朋友,从而在我在最失落的时候还能屹立不倒。
不知不觉三十岁了,也结婚了,人生又到了另一个阶段,我也做了一个重大的决定,就是离开这个高度发展的国家,新加坡不是不好,只要你有钱,你可享受至高无上的生活,这里什么都有。相反的,你只能靠着那车水杯薪过着平淡的日子,一辈子要背负一大堆贷款,和别人挤在那缓慢的地铁里,每个人的眼神似乎都充满怨恨,疲惫或逼不得已的感觉。除了工作,回家休息,哪都别去,因为那些奢侈的生活,不是我这个阶层的人可以享受的。或许你可以说我不够努力,没上进心,可是这绝对不是我所要最求的生活,如同监狱般的生活。我不懂我回去后是否有好的发展,但是,我知道我留在这里结果会是和大多数新加坡人的命运一样,做到68岁,退休后领着足够三餐的退休金,过着孤单凄惨的日子。
当我想到我将要回到我生活了21年的地方就觉得非常期待和开心。一大堆美食和我的回忆,将会从新回到我的身边,我儿时的玩伴,我许久没见的好朋友。每年回乡过年时都把握每天的时间,把行程排得满满的,好像要把全部的美食都装进肚子里,好让我一整年都不用怀念,要见我所有的好友,就像我就要去监牢服刑,短短的一两个星期的假期很快的就过去了,而留下的却是怀念。可是这次是真的不用走了,我回来了,我的好友!我的家乡!
我想我唯一舍不得的就是我在新加坡的家人、知心好友、美食和美景。有一天我希望我会是以旅客的身份来这里度假,享受一下这里的设备,而不是被别人当作劳工般的对待。在马来西亚已经是二等公民,来到别人国家还要被人当劳工真的是惨!Good Bye!Singapore,Hello!马来西亚!
不知不觉三十岁了,也结婚了,人生又到了另一个阶段,我也做了一个重大的决定,就是离开这个高度发展的国家,新加坡不是不好,只要你有钱,你可享受至高无上的生活,这里什么都有。相反的,你只能靠着那车水杯薪过着平淡的日子,一辈子要背负一大堆贷款,和别人挤在那缓慢的地铁里,每个人的眼神似乎都充满怨恨,疲惫或逼不得已的感觉。除了工作,回家休息,哪都别去,因为那些奢侈的生活,不是我这个阶层的人可以享受的。或许你可以说我不够努力,没上进心,可是这绝对不是我所要最求的生活,如同监狱般的生活。我不懂我回去后是否有好的发展,但是,我知道我留在这里结果会是和大多数新加坡人的命运一样,做到68岁,退休后领着足够三餐的退休金,过着孤单凄惨的日子。
当我想到我将要回到我生活了21年的地方就觉得非常期待和开心。一大堆美食和我的回忆,将会从新回到我的身边,我儿时的玩伴,我许久没见的好朋友。每年回乡过年时都把握每天的时间,把行程排得满满的,好像要把全部的美食都装进肚子里,好让我一整年都不用怀念,要见我所有的好友,就像我就要去监牢服刑,短短的一两个星期的假期很快的就过去了,而留下的却是怀念。可是这次是真的不用走了,我回来了,我的好友!我的家乡!
我想我唯一舍不得的就是我在新加坡的家人、知心好友、美食和美景。有一天我希望我会是以旅客的身份来这里度假,享受一下这里的设备,而不是被别人当作劳工般的对待。在马来西亚已经是二等公民,来到别人国家还要被人当劳工真的是惨!Good Bye!Singapore,Hello!马来西亚!
2010年10月25日星期一
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